And I've got all the world to lose, But I just want to hold on to the, Easy silence that you make for me

I am currently:

~ leading a cov. group
~ active in 2 bible studies
~ a church goer
~ active in a Christian sorority
~ discipling a freshman

I spend hours each week talking with friends about faith and the importance of having Christ take hold of your life. Yet, I am afraid to talk to God. I can give devos, pray for others, create faith based ciriculum for small groups, but I can't sit down and spend time with just Him. I recognize His presence in my life and thank Him...but I'd rather hold on to my own internal crisises than open up to Him and handle them in the ways I know best.

I know what I would say to someone if they said this to me. But logic doesn't always make sense to me.